Today's Blind Items - Thoughts Out Loud

THIS is what I have been upset about for the past 6 months. This is what really got to me. I’ve never felt more betrayed by anyone in my entire life and I will never forgive them and I will never forgive myself.

I’m jumping back into so many things, I don’t have a “plan” per se, just getting back to what I was doing before I was rudely interrupted, tbh I was actually approached first last year to revive _________, I asked them if they could please wait a year until I was out of my c-ship, they said absolutely but instead went to _________ behind my back and that’s what actually put me over the edge. I’ve never felt more betrayed in my entire life by anyone in the world. That will come out soon though.

Instead, __________ approached ___________ and asked HIM to run the show instead. I had to hear about it in the press.

They screwed me out of a $2million dollar project & lied to me.

I’m hoping a movement similar to #FreeBritney will spark some concern with my situation. I have not received a dime from my parents in 5 months which is highly illegal because it is court ordered. My mother tried to fight my early release and tried to fight with my doctors to get my discharge annulled. Most of my income comes from a beautiful house that I purchased in 2011, I just do not have direct access to MY own money and it’s starting to take a toll on me again. My mother is getting ready to have my c-ship extended FAR BEYOND 2020 and she is going to use my recent stay at the facility the main reason for the extension. My mother refuses to give me funds for school or daily necessities but had no issue buying a new home in Leander TX with MY money. I literally just have one semester to finish and I will officially be a FIDM graduate. This is absolutely insane and something needs to happen. MOST things aren’t always as they appear. I cannot afford anymore negative PR but I have no other choice. It’s been extremely hard to move on and move forward with the limited resources that are being made available to me. I cannot even afford the school supplies that I desperately need for my last semester. My mother wants nothing more than to see me fail and I’m scared that she might succeed, permanently.

I’m just VERY upset with what ___________ did to me.

I was literally PRAYING for that job with  ___________. I’ve never prayed so much in my entire life. I just wanted them to wait a year until my conservatorship was over and was free, and I feel I would have looked MY BEST EVER considering the amount of work I would have put into myself and into my talent and craft, + countless hours in the gym, etc especially knowing that I could have been the face & name of a show that I helped become a hit success. I literally thought that ___________ would have waited & gave me that opportunity, I was skeptical but they assured me that they would wait, but instead I had to heard about it in the press, like most things. I’ve never wanted anything more in my life. But hey, time is money I guess and they wanted to rush something that should have definitely not been rushed. I'm not even sure if _________ is aware of what they did to me and what we had planned, but I met with ___________ last year and there are photos of me leaving one of our meetings with them.

THIS was the actual reason for everything. This was what caused me to just sort of give up and felt that I may have needed professional help. It sounded SO ridiculous when people were told that it was “the stress from my ________ photoshoot.” Huh? WHAT STRESS? I loved the _______ shoot so much, and it was shot over the summer, I just don’t understand TA!