Today's Blind Items - Everyday Is A Lifetime

It has been a hard few years for this celebrity. Once the A list darling of the tween world she now has made her way into the world of mainstream and is on a very hit show and says that everyday is a struggle. A struggle to not use and a struggle to fall asleep. A struggle to make it through an hour a day or sometimes even a minute. She says she is fine when she is working and that none of the other people she works with on her show even have a clue what she goes through on a daily basis because while at work she can control her urges and the demons. It is when she gets drunken texts from the guy she still loves but who causes her nothing but pain that it hurts. He loves to say nasty things about her and reminds her of her flaws and knows that no matter what he says or does or how many times he cheats or trashes her that she will always fall under his spell and do what he wants and not just because he is a B- list actor. Sometimes when he is drunk and she is trying to sleep without pills, he will send her photos of himself having sex with other women. He knows it will make her even less likely to sleep. He knows what buttons to push on her. She would like to work every second of everyday and then crawl into bed exhausted. That is the only way she can ever really sleep. She has welcomed her new job with open arms. Before, she would struggle to find something to do everyday. She would go days and days without working and would sit at home and try and stay focused on one activity for 15 minutes. She would do this like clockwork with a timer to let her know when it was 15 minutes. Day after day she would do this. Struggling to make it 15 minutes. Friends would come over and try and help, but they would always have to leave at some point. She would bribe them to stay and pay them or give them gifts. Anything to not be alone. She paid some people to be with her as employees but it was awkward.