ZX And The World Of Gossip--Written By Ent

So last night I had a very profound thought. It almost hurt because it's so rare. ZX and I had a long talk last night about perception and gossip and hurt feelings. This blog is a microcosm of the gossip world in the sense that ZX talks about her life in front of the readers of this blog and is judged much the same way as the readers of US or Star judge Lindsay or Britney. The scale may be smaller but the result is the same. What is not the same though is that ZX has chosen to really share her life both good and bad and not just put forth what publicists want her to say or do.

The result is that she is judged as a person by what she writes. Much the same as Lindsay or Kate is judged by some mysterious powder or water bottles in a photo. We don't actually know everything that goes on in Lindsay's or Britney's life but make assumptions based on what we see. I myself have only met Lindsay twice. The first time I blogged about it and my second left my impression of her unchanged. In the two times I met her and spoke with her she was truly captivating and charming and nothing like her portrayal in the tabloids and on this site. There is more than one side to Lindsay and there is definitely more to ZX.

My idea with ZX was to let you the reader see what a typical actress goes through on a daily basis. ZX being the amazing person she is expanded on that and wanted to really share what goes on in her life and what she deals with on a daily basis. I don't think that any of us can open our lives to the world and be free of criticism for what we do, or say and certainly not for all of our actions. I for one stopped writing as much about my own life because I hated leaving myself open to criticism. It's tough to be judged and found wanting. The blog itself is a different story and I welcome the criticism and comments because it's part of what makes the blog what it is and I don't want anyone to stop taking shots at it if that is how you feel. What I do ask is that before you take a shot at ZX for her life or how she lives it, that you think about yourself and whether under the same scrutiny you would also be found wanting or deficient.

So after this call with ZX ended about 2am I decided to get some more reaction from my profound thought from those who would know.

2:13am

LG: hello?
Ent: hey
LG: Jesus Christ it's 2am wtf do you want? (LG is not a night owl)
Ent: I need a ride to the jail because I have a client there who needs to get out and AP took my car again.
LG:No she didn't. You got a new car which she can't drive.
Ent: Oh yeah. Listen I was thinking and I wanted to ask you something.
LG:Call me tomorrow.
Ent: Come on. It will only take a minute.
LG:No.
Ent:If you don't I'll tell my readers who you played doctor with when you were a kid.
LG:If you do, I'll go on your comments section and tell them who you played doctor with then and who you want to play doctor with now.
Ent:Have a nice night sweetie. Go back to sleep. Sorry to have bothered you.

Well that didn't work but there was one more chance.

2:22am (had to use the bathroom)

AP:Hello?
Ent:hey.
AP:What do you want? (are you sensing a tone here?)
Ent:What's wrong? Is ____ spending the night?
AP:Get your mind out of the gutter, and no he isn't.
Ent:Listen I have a question for you.
AP:No, I don't know how to drive a stick so your car is safe.
Ent: I know that. Listen. Do tabloids ever get your life right? Does the world ever truly see who you are?
AP: A magazine like Vanity Fair or Rolling Stone or W gets it somewhat because they have the space and the writers to really look close and spend time with you to get a sense of who you are, but everyone else doesn't come close. For the most part it's a game. You try and get the world to see what you want them to see and the world tries to catch you doing what they want you to be doing. Neither side is going to be really happy but you try and try and hopefully you can move it your way a little by little. The problem is that if you screw up you have to start at the very beginning. That's the part that sucks. I hate starting at the beginning again and again and sometimes it makes you just want to give up. The problem is that you can't give up if you want to make a living or if you want to go outside. I hate trying to be perfect because I'm not. The problem is that even when I just go to Ralph's I have to look and act perfect and have to have a smile on my face. If I don't, or don't want to wear makeup or whatever, someone is going to notice and comment. It sucks. But at the same time it's part of me and what I have to do to make a living and to get the extra $3 on a royalty check because someone goes and rents one of my movies after seeing my picture in People or on the internet. Does that answer your question?
Ent:Yes. Thanks. So what hurts the most when people talk about you?
AP: Like I said. I hate starting over again. It hurts when I'm good and people don't believe I'm being good or people see a picture and assume the rest of the scene. It's just a moment in time and it's impossible to maintain the same expression or look all of the time. But there are just so many cameras and phones and people that if you alter your expression or stride or whatever, that is the pic that is shown. It's more frustration than hurt and it makes you want to scream.
Ent:Thanks. What are you doing this weekend?
AP:(long, drawn out story)

So ZX is filming tomorrow and I asked her to take lots of photos so you can see what she does and what she sees and to make you feel like you are on the set with her. My words were to People magazine it. Just a documentary of what her day was like from waking up until she is done filming for the day. I really don't know if she'll post again after that or if she does, whether she will open up about anything but there is always hope.