Did Lindsay Lohan Try And Commit Suicide? Twice?

Star thinks so, and you know they never get it wrong.

Lindsay Lohan's shocking car crash and DUI arrest are just the latest disturbing incidents marking the troubled young star’s descent into drugs, drinking and, Star has learned two attempts to commit suicide! A close friend tells Star that during an emotional meltdown in NYC in the weeks before her May 26 bust, Lindsay screamed that she just wanted to end it all – and tried.

“She grabbed a knife and started cutting at her writs,” the insider reveals. “A friend made her stop and went around looking for sharp objects. Lindsay ran into the bathroom with a bottle of Advil.” (yeah that Advil is a killer.)

Crying, “Leave me alone! I just want to die!” Lindsay locked herself in the bathroom and threatened to swallow the entire bottle, says the source. Finally, someone broke down the door and saved the distraught actress from herself!

Just a month away from her 21st birthday, Lindsay has already done a stint in rehab at the Wonderland Center in Los Angeles . But friends say that she was partying right up to the disastrous car crash. (not just friends. I think the entire world knows at this point)

The wild night that proceeded it was a not-so-pretty picture of the star’s out of control life. She was spotted at Les Deux in Hollywood , where she partied with pals until 2:30 am. Then Lindsay headed to a private party reportedly at the Hollywood Hills home of Koi restaurant owner Nick Hawk. She was seen leaving around 4:00 am appearing completely wasted,” an onlooker reports. But Lindsay went to the Mondrian Hotel on the Sunset Strip. She was briefly seen in the hotel’s Skybar club before leaving at 4:45 am and returning to her condo, where, says a source, she proceeded to fight with her lesbian lover, Samantha Ronson, 29.

Friends say that the pair had been battling for two days. “Sam was at Lindsay’s on Thursday night, but they were arguing because Lindsay won’t acknowledge her as her girlfriend,’ says a source. When Lindsay got home, she fought with Samantha again, says the source. “At about 5 am, Samantha stormed out of Lindsay’s apartment complex off Sunset Blvd. “Lindsay came up behind Samantha in her black Mercedes. There was someone else in the passenger seat Lindsay slowed down and exchanged a few heated words with Samantha.

Samantha then got in the car, sitting on the lap of the passenger and they took off. About 10 minutes later, Lindsay crashed her car. She was speeding and lost control. An eyewitness tells Star that after the crash, Lindsay, Samantha and the other friend fled the scene. “Lindsay crawled out of her smashed car from the passenger side and ran over toward the house across the street,” says the onlooker. The security guard at the estate says Lindsay was “hysterical.” She started ringing the doorbell. Then, she and her friends left and Lindsay’s bodyguard arrived and drove the damaged Mercedes away. “Lindsay is on a reckless road right now, declares another friend. We’re all afraid she’s going to end up dead soon. She needs help now.”

In fact, just two days after the DUI, on the morning of May 28, Lindsay was found passed out in a car after coming out of Teddy’s nightclub, being comforted by none other than Samantha. Now, while reps for the actress says she has not attempted suicide, concern for Lindsay is mounting among those who love and care for her and believe that what she’s doing is tantamount to suicide.