Every so often I hear a story about an actor or actress who is into pain or a little S&M
. Nothing too terrible or excessive. Then you also see things like other actresses who enjoy the company of men and cannot be picky about what they can choose to say no to since they are getting a great deal of money. This model is different. You might not be able to put a face with the name, but you would know the name. A list in her world with B list name recognition in the real world. Over the past several months, what was just a hidden thing for her has come out in the open as she becomes more famous. What she used to hide with makeup or “a week off for vacation” is now there for the world to see when she is not careful about showing off her wounds. Not only has she been spotted with bruises around her neck and wrists, but there is not a day that goes by that you don't see her with bruises or rope burns around her ankles. Those are the obvious signs. If you happen to see her changing during a gig or a show, you will see the cuts and bruises from a whip on her back and stomach. She told a friend that while she used to be able to get turned on by just a tiny amount of pain, she has now become so numb to it, that it takes a greater and greater amount before she is able to be pleased and she worries that one day she might die because of her need to feel release, but that it comes at a very high price. She has never discussed the origins of why she needs pain although she did say that her second or third sexual encounter was with a man in his 50's when she was in her teens and that he used to beat her and she was so in love with him that she never said no.